7 years old
Tumour in the Pineal Gland.
"If her parents want me, I will go today to see her." I told my longterm client. I am honoured to be asked.
The Oncology ward was dark.
Ruby was surrounded with blinking machines, tubes running to her body, blankets and stuffed animals piled up. I went in, sat at the end of the bed and smiled. It felt and looked like a cave, besides the physical layer, I could sense there was an energetic barrier, a surround to separate the tiny human from the outer world.
Ruby had been there for 5 days, she looked tiny, frail and terrified. A small set of darkened, hopeless eyes stared, without spark, at me. I dropped into my heart, breathed deep and smiled long. Even in the pain, and hopelessness of this family, I could feel the the brilliant light of her heart, her soul, her perfectness. My own heart was pounding in answer to the tremendous emotions.
"Is this your elephant?" I pick up a stuffed toy.
She nods. "Elly"
"hmm, Elly is telling me about you. Did you know she can talk?"
Ruby moves her head back and forth slightly. There are numerous tubes attached to her skull, so she moves carefully.
"She is telling me what we are going to do to address your system with loving energy and gentleness" I continue.
Ruby has the biggest brown eyes, but does not smile.
I sit with the elephant in my hand and test through my BodyTalk protocol, tipping Elly's head up and down for yes's and no's. Ruby watches silently from her nest.
. . .
When I had walked into the room, I could feel a weight, a thickness and something keeping from getting near and touching her. So I had decided to keep my distance, and picked up the toy to use as a surrogate. (BodyTalk is effective for use on animals and babies with the surrogate testing method)
The first priority that surfaces is a 6 foot thick wall of steel around Ruby. Elly the elephant helps me out with testing to figure out how to clear it. We all giggle when Elly gets ridiculously excited about some of the yes's. We can all feel the shiver of the ultra conscious, the room glows with blue. My heart is bursting being close to this girl, it swells with knowing and love for her journey. I realize anyone else might have felt doom, grief and hopelessness. Yet the peace and love was breathtaking. Vibrating.
Ruby has grown up with anaphylaxis of multiple varieties, and in consciousness medicine the layer of steel is a manifestation of the fear which would be a big player in the root of the immune system imbalance. (seeing this form of steel is just another way to perceive the ultra-protective barrier she is emanating-.)
Elly was nodding away again. "Body Chemisty Intolerance to a Neurotransmitter?" I ask Elly.
The tiny elephany nods vigorously.
"Further Details on Neuro Transmitters, Elly?"
Again Elly tips her trunk up and down for yes.
I pick up my ipad, read the Neurotransmitter substance lists, after testing through, I ask "1 to 10?" No, shakes the elephant "10 to 20?"
Elly's Yes is emphatic!
"More specific on 10 to 20 Elly?"
Elly's nodding a yes.
"10?" I ask. Shaking her trunk. A no.
"14?" YES!! Elly nodding is taking it's toll, she takes a break while I find the specific neurotransmitter.
"Carnosine, with an orientation to an event @ 8 months Gestation, tapping out." I announce the detail identified by the body.
CARNOSINE AS A NEUROPROTECTIVE AGENT
Ruby's mom Gloria, had been sitting across from us watching. Looking stunned, "I know the event" She says. I glance at her.
As I tap I say, "this is all the body needs to hear about it." She silences and leans back.
Ruby Ninja - heightened intuition
Elly has brought us to another substance Identification- Radiation Kit
"Twenty" Ruby blurts the word with strength. Loud. Demanding.
"Uh, Okay . ." surprised and stunned with her sudden interaction, I reach for my ipad with all my lists . . I don't have my 5000 kits memorized.
"What's Twenty??" She asks demands again. Her sudden interaction and intuition is flustering me.
"I am looking Ruby, um. Oh." I look up at her "Number twenty is the 'ruby laser', it's your name, Ruby!! You just found your name in my lists of 5000 substances. Are you a ninja??"
Ruby giggles, "Ya!"
I feel the impact of her intuitive find. I continue, brought down to my human mind as it muddles with awe. We tap through a bit more priorities and I see her Level of Consciousness is @ 6 (out of 1000)
6 is self elimination.
The session had brought her up to over 300. And we needed to see her clear through 600 + to see her through the surgery, the removal of the tumour. And through the following conventional treatments.
Mom and I talk outside. "I know this is the end for her, I am ok to let go" Mom is vibrating with love, and acceptance, she feels it. Whatever happens, happens. I feel that she really has let go of the outcome, Ruby's mom is in the moment.
"The Event, Laura that date, was exactly when I was pregnant, in a bad accident and hospitalized, she didn't move in the womb for days. How did you know??"
We laugh quietly, shaking our heads.
"Her body knows, & told me, Gloria, and then the Ruby Laser Identification of her own name!! That is incredible!" I am awed.
The mother is sweet, hands on her face, "I never believed in this stuff, well I did, I wanted to . . But now, this, it is like a miracle. That does not even describe it!"
"I will continue working and helping as much as I can." I feel the tug of energy exchange the lines of money shift into our chat. "Please don't worry about my costs, I want to support you & Ruby, I know it will only return to me someday. I need to help Ruby through this, and I have friends & clients that will help the both of us."
I visited Ruby many times after this initial work.
The Angels that brought me to Ruby
A few days after my initial visit her tumour was removed through the occiput, successfully. I have held her in my heart through her journey, with multiple sessions in person and at a distant as she underwent aggressive chemotherapy. As I live in Telkwa BC, in person visits to Children's hospital have been timed with my ongoing training and clinics in Vancouver. It was miracle after miracle, I was connected with flights from ww.Hawkair.ca that made it possible for me to work with the family each month, flying in and out, seeming to arrive just in time for another round, another invasive procedure, and another reaction in her system.
I give many thanks to Hawkair and their employees, they are truly a community airline.
Also much love and thanks to Cloud9 Float Spa has supported my work with Ruby and her family, I have done many distant sessions on Ruby in the float tanks there, allowing me to drop into deepest Theta state and work with her. When floating in the deprivation tanks, I could see her with me, holding hands like otters as we explored the deepest imprints in her subconscious.
Ruby was recently released - with clear MRI's and after multiple rounds of Chemo, she has lost her hair, and is full of joy with her new wig. She will be back to have check -ups. But for now is back home, with her rare and highly aggressive cancer in remission. Her energy, intuition and vibrancy continues to amaze, and when I last visited, she was jumping to see me, and was non-stop talking and walking and I am sure could rival my own 7 year old's energy.
I have a sore area at the front of my mouth, so first I tap out my BodyTalk Access techniques.
The swollen sore lessens in irritation immediately, then dissipates to nothing the next day.
Sensitivity in my teeth becomes more pronounced the following day, and the swelling returns, telling me there is a more complex consciousness beneath this symptom. I sit and think about my relationships, my life, and what my mouth represents, especially this top of my mouth area. Guilt? no. Fear? no. My tongue presses the area, I fill the painful place with my thought, my acceptance, my gratitude for it's message.
What are you all about? Childhood? Yes. Hmm Play? no. Growth? no. Nourishment? Yes! Immediately I feel the rush of cells in the area as they respond to my discovery. I reflect on this. I search for any more details or links, and them r eceive permission to tap out.
There is a phrase surfacing as well, "Life is not nourishing" I can see myself as a 2 year old. This is my general experience.
hmmm. The heart has been a big focus for me alot, the conception vessel meridian was a big part of my sessions of the last year. I have also released a belief system in my Large Intestine of "Life is gut wrenching" and the inhumanity/injustice of life.
Chinese Medicine on Heart This reading helped me see the link of the heart and the mouth ulcers, I have restlessness, and over tired, because of inability to fully sleep . . .
Specifically the purple highlighted phrases are responding in my innate testing:
"UPFLARING HEART FIRE (xin huo shang yan): primary symptoms are restlessness; mouth ulcers; palpitations; insomnia. Secondary symptoms include heat sensation in the chest; flushed face; thirst; dark or red urine; constipation; and in serious cases, outbreaks of madness. The tongue typically presents with a red body or a bright red tip; the pulse tends to be forceful and rapid.
Representative Herbs: gardenia (zhizi), coptis (huanglian), ox gallstone (niuhuang), rhinoceros horn (xijiao), antelope horn (lingyangjiao), (lianzixin), scrophularia (xuanshen), raw rehmannia (sheng dihuang), forsythia (lianqiao), ophiopogon (maimendong), phragmites (lugen), lithospermum (zicao).
Representative Formulas: Purge the Heart Decoction (Xiexin Tang); Rehmannia and Akebia Formula (Daochi San)."
out break of madness I can relate to as well, I have felt & surfaced "madness" when reflecting on my feelings about life and my place. Some of my journal writings definitely reflect madness lately.
The sore/ulcer in my mouth is retreating, but now I feel a cold sore surfacing on the center of my top lip.
Focusing - Lips can be about communication, self expression or sensually more specific - I see that for me it's about sensual nourishment, which is one of many forms of nourishment that have been surfacing for me lately . . . . as I sit with the cold sore and open my heart to the wisdom within it, I see it is a consciousness about speaking more freely about my sensual needs and intimacy. I note to myself to tap into phrases that may help me imprint a subconscious shift, pertaining to openness in my intimacy. I have also had very strong pain in my sacral area for a day last week . . .
1. cell repair on belief system of "I need to stay small" -tap out
2. circulation of lymph from nervous system - link to - Body Chemistry - intolerance to "liver detox pathways" - glutathione -
- Tingling in developing cold sore has stopped and the "explosiveness" feeling of the surfacing sore has resided.
- mouth ulcer symptoms are just a slight irritation